MIEL

Today is officially my 4th Rez Day, Anjelyc Morales was born 9/28/07.  I haven't always been in world, as I've explained before my computer couldn't handle SL so when i signed up I found that I couldn't actually use it for almost a year until I upgraded to my beloved Acer that I still miss to this day.  My shape is the same shape that I made back in '08 when I could finally see what the freak I was doing and I like it.  I don't change it unless I'm using a shape for a blog but that's just for the picture.  Rarely does Anjelyc look different, besides my changing skins on occasion.  What has changed, though is my views on a lot of things in SL.  When I first started blogging, I was passionate about everything.  I wanted to learn and soak up information.  People are always willing to give their opinion, but is it always genuine?  NO, it's not.  Someone can seem so wonderful and talented and then one day the blinders come off and I've been so taken aback by things I've realized that its unreal.  Being a blogger, you would think I knew all about templates lol but I had no idea until sometime last year that so many designers used them.  Honestly it makes me wonder a lot, I understand WHY people use them in a way but I never noticed such things.  I'll go back to that in a minute, first I want to talk about this first photo I posted.  The hair, skin and shoes were definitely not things that I owned back then but this outfit is the first thing that I bought with lindens.  I still think it's not bad.  Obviously, denim textures have come a long way since this outfit but still…not bad.  I was very proud of what I had spent my…I dunno I think it was 150L$?  That was for both pieces and I had horrendous blingy black heels that I chucked as soon as I cammed myself and saw the outfit as a whole.  Little did I know that one day the creator of this little number, Aeris Pinazzo…would become my confidant…my best friend, and someone that I care immensely about both in RL and in SL.

I had a job in RL, and had just started to get to know Gio within SL so I thought I'd get a little non-invasive job in SL so I didn't have to upload my RL money to shop.  I wanted desperately to make my avatar better looking, and had no idea where to start.  When I bought my first lil outfit, I was invited to the *Mythology* group which turned out to be a blessing in disguise that I accepted.  I didn't know how to do ANYTHING in-world but I was willing to learn.  Aeris posted a job offer to be a group manager, and I applied.  Trust me, I made sure she knew I was a total mess that didn't actually know how to do much.  She accepted, taught me what she wanted me to know and off we were!  She gave me lots of clothing goodies, so I was wearing her stuff everyday.  Her avatar was so cute, and she took me skin shopping once and hair also.  We cleaned up shop at the 50% off Truth Hair Sale.  I was learning how to invite people to groups, how to use scripts…set up vendors and help customers while I was at the store with prim adjustments and the like.  It got to where I was just hanging out at the store all the time, helping out when I didn't need to be there.  This outfit was absolutely the most popular item for a long time at Mythology, Aeris has always had serious lady wood for aqua tones.  After a short time, Aeris decided to re-brand and make the name of the store ::MYTH:: instead of *Mythology*.  So much work went into that, but with it came a new level of awesome to her clothing making.  She branched out, did better denim…more sculpts, brighter bold colors.  I was proud to be a teenie part of her SLife, and happy that she allowed me to be.

Things got a little gully at some point, Gio and I decided to try to bring our SLives into reality and meet.  I moved to california, got a family that didn't want me and a pregnancy that I wanted desperately.  It wasn't meant to be, and i miscarried in my 2nd trimester.  I was sad, depressed, lonely and missing home so badly.  This was also around the time my beloved Acer no longer worked, due to Gio's daughter breaking it in such a way that it was pretty much unfixable.  I didn't have the money to replace it, so I was away from SL for almost a year.  In that time, Aeris and ::MYTH:: continued to grow and she had some hard times as well.  She missed me, and I was all excited to hear that lol.  I missed her too, and all the fun we would have in SL together.  Her creations continued to get better and better, her drawing skill growing by leaps and bounds.  Accusations of copying people, 'popular' types, models…taking advantage of her good nature and desire to fit in.  I was so angry at everything she went through, and mad that I couldn't do anything to prevent it or make it better when I was able to come back.  After awhile I got pregnant again, and after a draining complicated pregnancy I had the love of my life…my son.  I got a new laptop, and helped Aeris close MYTH.    To see her designs making someone else famous hurts my heart, but that is the nature of the biz I guess.  It still saddens me to this day, that she worked so hard and learned so much just to have it all go away.  So disheartened by the lies people will tell you just to make you think they're more powerful then they really are…it wasn't worth it anymore.  I understood, and I still do…but I'm still angry about it.  If you're going to be in SL bragging on your worth, make damn sure you're about something.

On again, off again…friends came and went and so have jobs.  The thing I'm most grateful for is finding *Mythology* and that leading to my friendship with Aeris.  Even though she's not online much anymore I'll consider her a true friend always.  At times, we all become so cynical about finding a truly real person on Second Life.  I know who I am and I never try to be anything else, so when someone shows that back to me it's pretty much the awesome.  Second life is a big, beautiful virtual existence where we can do so very much.  Embrace it, put yourself out there on occasion.  To live life is to get hurt…but that one rare occasion you find a diamond in the rough can make up for all the sorrow of the past.  After 4 years on Second Life, I found my soul mate…and my best friend. 

Pic 1:

*Mythology* Jean Skirt & Satin Corset
Pose – Estetica: and I miss you
Truth – Agnes 3 Streaked

Pic 2:

*Mythology* Highrise Outfit
Estetica: Immaculate Dream
Truth – Paige

Pic 3:

*Mythology* Feather Boa in Pink
::MYTH:: Sailor Shorts in Black
Estetica: Leave in Silence
Truth – Kami Streaked

Pic 4:

::MYTH:: HighRise Jean Skirt in Navy
::MYTH:: Mini Pocket Tee in Yella
MIEL Puddle Boots – Bright
estetica: lie to me
Truth – Cindy

::MYTH:: on Marketplace

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